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From: Adrienne.Barhydt@p15.f41.n105.z1.fidonet.org (Adrienne Barhydt)
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hi betty,

thanks for all your suggestions.  the number one thing for me now
is to remember not to try to deal with everything at once.  my
number one priority is to get into the paratransit system.  i
completed the application and mailed it to my doctor yesterday to
get her signature.  i think when i have a way to get to and from
work and doctors' appointments i will be a lot more at ease.  right
now the calendar just sits there and glares at me.

the practical and the emotional are existing on two different
planes for me now.  if i attend to the practical the emotional gets
lost in the dust.  if i go with the emotional the practical becomes
scarier and scarier.  there doesn't seem to be a point of balance
between the two.

i am working from home, dialing up the mainframe from the pc.  i
had hoped to have a new set of wheels under my wheels by next week
so i could get in to work but the bureaucracy is making me doubtful
now.

on the flossing situation.  i have become more expert than my ot on
what is available and what works.  there is no way to load the
holders that come unthreaded.  the preloaded ones that i have tried
tend to be poor quality floss that shreds as soon as you try to use
it.  some are so small that you can't get the floss down to the gum
line.  the best that i have found hold the floss quite rigid so you
can't maneuver it well enough for it to be effective.  i am using
an electric tooth brush plaque remover gadget but i don't yet have
the OFFICIAL word from the hygienist on how well my gums are
doing.  the flossing is a real sore spot for me because it is about
the only health thing i've been able to do and really make a
difference.

my beggars can't be choosers comment was primarily an emotional
expression in reaction to changes in my life due to becoming
dependent, changes that i would like to generate more discussion
among anyone that's interested.  the thing is when you are
dependent on others, your expectations just have to change.  things
are just never going to be the way they'd be if you were going to
do them for yourself.  like, it's just not reasonable to expect
anybody to just drop everything and do what you want right when you
want it.  that is clear, very clear and very reasonable.  but to
face that again and again and again for trivial things as well as
important things is going to take an attitude adjustment that seems
pretty impossible right now.

well, i must be making some progress towards getting back to my
normal self.  i look at my life revolving around the bathroom
comments and i can laugh at the situation. (hey, anybody out there
got any good bathroom jokes?)

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