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From: rh@mit-eddie.UUCP (Randy Haskins)
Newsgroups: net.women
Subject: Re: Nothing ever happens to people unless they want it to
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Date: Fri, 20-Jan-84 22:54:17 EST
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Posted: Fri Jan 20 22:54:17 1984
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Oh, gee.  I can see that my first argument should've been better
formulated and reasoned out before posting.  I keep assuming people
look at the world like I do.  Okay, I'll try to sort of explain the
way I think of things (like anyone cares, but I'll try anyway).  I'll
also try to keep it brief:


First of all, I should warn you that I have a view of the world that
is based on metaphysics and believing in unseen forces so heavily that
most of you won't buy it.  There was a time in my life when I was
religious, then a time when I believed science could explain
everything.  That was before I knew how much science COULDN'T do.  Why
is it easier for you to believe in the electronic field that is
allowing you to read this than it is for you to believe in the psychic
field that surrounds me when I walk down the street?  Why are you so
convinced that there are only 5 senses?  There are things that have
happened in my life that I've tried real hard to explain with science
(before I came to a metaphysical view of the world), and I couldn't.
And it wasn't due to lack of understanding, because, in all modesty, I
am a hell of a good Generalist.  After a number of these things
happening, I finally decided that total science wasn't the answer.  If
people are interested in learning more about what I think, I would
prefer to do mail, since I've clogged the network enough with my
"religious" beliefs.

Now, about that psychic field.  I was discussing this with a very dear
friend last night.  She thinks that there are a lot of problems with
having violence integrated into one's being.  I guess she's right,
there are.  Among them, she cited, is that it might inspire a fear in
my friends that I might erupt and hit them.  She says she doesn't
worry about it because she can't imagine us in a situation where she
would make me mad enough to want to hit her.  (We know that we will
probably never be lovers for this and other similar reasons.)  I've
been thinking about an alternative to violence, but it's difficult
because violence doesn't scare me that much.  She says that it's
because I'm a guy and less susceptible to having the crap beat out of
me by other people than she is.  I think more of the reason is that my
second step-mother (from age 11 - 18) used to beat the crap out of me
on a regular basis.  After a while, I decided that my only defense was
to realize that it was "only pain," and it wasn't going to kill me.
You will probably argue that it's made me accept violence more, but I
will argue that it's also given me a high threshhold for physical
pain, which I'm really glad to have.  (I tend to suffer from bad
headaches from time to time, like right now.)  I also played organized
football for 5 years, which is just a form of controlled violence
(especially the way I played).  I suppose the point is you don't HAVE
to use violent thoughts to protect you when walking down the street,
it's just the most convenient method for me.  Since the violence is in
me anyway (and I'm not really trying to get rid of it), it doesn't
cost me anything to tap into it.  Psychic fields need power, and rage
is a very good source of power.  Love can be a source of power also,
but I've found it to be less harnessable (for me, at least).  It's
also more difficult to maintain in the face of adversity, unless maybe
if you've been brought up that way (but I've been brought up with lots
of hate, remember?).  You can apply the approach of Ben Kenobi in SW
IV, where he makes people leave them alone just because.  (Of course,
this did fail in one case, so he had to cut some guy's arm off.)  I
have successfully snuck up on people because I "willed" them not to
know I was there.  (I have walked past people's field of vision
without them seeing me, many many times.)  You could walk down the
street and make people not take particular notice of you.  What I
really do is walk down the street and wear an aura that says I am
basically a crazy person.  It tells them that there are easier targets
than me; like most people will cower in fear if threatened, but
it's entirely possible that I will attempt to kill them.  Most muggers
and their ilk really don't want to deal with people like this, and
I can't say that I blame them.  I suppose what I'm trying to say is
that you just walk down the street and make them think, "This one's
too little (crazy, strong, etc.), you don't want do anything to
him/her."

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Randwulf  (Randy Haskins);  Path= genrad!mit-eddie!rh