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From: bytebug@pertec.UUCP (roger long)
Newsgroups: net.singles
Subject: hurts so bad...
Message-ID: <304@pertec.UUCP>
Date: Wed, 13-Feb-85 09:57:42 EST
Article-I.D.: pertec.304
Posted: Wed Feb 13 09:57:42 1985
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Organization: Pertec Computer Corp., Irvine, CA
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Recently, the person I considered my SO began corresponding with
someone over the net.  Things hadn't been going too smoothly for us,
and before I knew it, he had sent her airline tickets to come out and
visit him!

Of course, I didn't learn of this visit until much later, although I
had an uneasy feeling when I found that she couldn't see me at all that
particular weekend.

Now I find that she is having him fly out to see her this coming
weekend.  He arrives the 14th and is staying through the 18th.  I'm
sure you realize just how thrilled I am about this!  The 16th would be
our five year "anniversery", and I had hoped to make it very special.
*sigh*

Why am I posting this to the net?  I guess I need some reassurance that
this empty feeling that has overcome me isn't wrong.  I feel deeply
hurt...  betrayed...  and yet she says she will always love me.  That's
supposed to make the pain go away?  If I loose the one thing I love
most in the world to someone else, I'm supposed to be reassured knowing
she still loves me?

The other question I have to ask is just how many other people would
ignore a previous relationship in order to pursue one for themselves? I
personally only want one relationship at a time, and doubt that I would
actively pursue someone I knew to be seeing someone else, especially if
I knew she had been seeing him for five years.  Is this considered "old
fashioned" these days?

Perhaps this all has been rehashed over and over on this newsgroup.
The questions I ask aren't all that unique, but I don't read
net.singles all that often.  If this is just so much more noise, please
forgive me.  Flames to /dev/null, please.  I hurt, and I needed to tell
someone.
-- 
	roger long
	pertec computer corp
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