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Subject: Self Pity
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Date: Thu, 9-May-85 17:01:03 EDT
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Self Pity 5/9/85

And I pray to God
For the strength I do not have
To stand in the spotlight proud
When my heart and spirit falter
I feel empty, betrayed by self

To be given the strength to go on
Pick up the pieces of a shattered dream
And create a new from the rubble
But I have no desire to do this
I want to left alone by life

To often have I been walked on
I have no strength to rise again
Only a desire to become the dust
Let me be what I am, a fool
No more to dream, I can not dream

When the spirit crashes to the earth
Lost from the joys of flight
I am nothing, lost in my own self pity
Where I feel the inadequacy of living
No sympathy for my life, it is 

Mary Hauck