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From: thoma@reed.UUCP (Ann Muir Thomas)
Newsgroups: net.singles
Subject: self-actualization
Message-ID: <1744@reed.UUCP>
Date: Tue, 30-Jul-85 03:17:55 EDT
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Posted: Tue Jul 30 03:17:55 1985
Date-Received: Thu, 1-Aug-85 22:23:06 EDT
Organization: Reed College, Portland, Oregon
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from the depths of keyboard hell comes....






	I am looking at this discussion from the viewpoint of one
who has gone through years and years of therapy, medication for
depression, and yes, a self-actualization seminar...The last of these
was very, very difficult; I was too immature at the time to understand
the difference between taking responsibility for one's emotions and
feelings (etc...) and blaming oneself for everything that happens. I
spent several years recovering from that one weekend in a hotel in
Hollywood with every variety of person imaginable, from secretary to
porn star to grandfather...all of us looking for the same thing,
happiness. The man running the seminar didn't give it to us, although
his stories were interesting enough; only one woman, who had literally
spent her life savings to be there, saw through his show at the time.
Annd she was pissed!

	I just want to tell you all that recovery and growth come
from **inside**; you can get all the tips in the world from seminars,
books, shrinks etc. and not change a thing, because you are SCARED,
or you really don't want to change.  I know; I have been there. And
I am still growing into myself, still in therapy, but oh the changes
I have made in the past two years! The basic problem is that I have
the mental development of a 35 year old, and the emotional development
of a teenager...can you imagine what that is like? 

	There is so much to be done, and so little time....

	No, I'm not drunk, or drugged (I don't get into that!) just
very very tired.....

						Ann
					...tektronix!reed!thoma

"Blackberries, when left at room temperature for several days, will
start to ferment quite happily...the potential for a wondrous
beverage is there, but controlling the fermentation is very difficult."