Relay-Version: version B 2.10 5/3/83; site utzoo.UUCP Posting-Version: version B 2.10.2 9/18/84; site decwrl.UUCP Path: utzoo!watmath!clyde!burl!ulysses!mhuxr!mhuxt!houxm!ihnp4!ucbvax!decwrl!levasseur@morgan.DEC (Ray EMD & S Admin 223-5027) From: levasseur@morgan.DEC (Ray EMD & S Admin 223-5027) Newsgroups: net.motss Subject: Personal Revelation about AIDS Message-ID: <335@decwrl.UUCP> Date: Thu, 5-Sep-85 10:00:14 EDT Article-I.D.: decwrl.335 Posted: Thu Sep 5 10:00:14 1985 Date-Received: Sat, 7-Sep-85 03:57:51 EDT Sender: daemon@decwrl.UUCP Organization: Digital Equipment Corporation Lines: 134 I just returned from vacation and ran into an old neighbor from 5 years ago in Boston. He was diagnosed with Kaposi's long before AIDS became a house- hold word. As time passed I watched him transformed from a very handsome, musc- ular man to someone who looked 30 years older than his years. A couple of years ago he was given ~6 months to live; after that I never saw him until recently. I was shocked when a hand grabbed me and he said, "Ray, how ya doin?" I couldn't believe my eyes; he looked truly wonderful, his youth had returned and so did the pecs and boceps. He was one of the few who had a total remission of the dis- ease and told me doctors have been studying him ever since his recovery. We had a couple of very long chats and he shared a lot of what he went through in the past few years. He also gave me a couple of serious warnings reg- arding safe sex, spoken from the voice of experience. This also fell in the same time period when a couple of the local Boston handout gay newspapers ran a coup- le of interesting articles on AIDS. I would post them but both were rather long. I would like to share some of his recommendations as well as a couple of points the papers brought up regarding recreational drug use and their possible relat- ionship to AIDS. One article was a reprint from the New York Native on the use of poppers. This one scared me since I have to admit to using amyl over the years. I don't think that I will in the future. A couple of points that the article brought up were: (1) Amyl and isobutyl nitrate are immunosuppressors (they kick the shit out of the immune system). (2) Almost all over the counter poppers tested (Rush, Bolt....etc) contained all sorts of contaminants; kerosene, hydrochloric acid, etc. Since they are not controled by the FDA, there is no REAL quality control. (3) They have been proven to cause heart, liver and kidney damage over time with heavy use, to say nothing of the lungs. (4) The majority of gay AIDS patients were reported to be heavy users of amyl and butyl, as well as speed, MDA and other gay playtime drugs. (5) Some studies show high correlations between heavy popper usage and the in- cidences of Pneumosystis Pneumonia and Kaposi's Sarcoma. (6) The isobutyl industry grossed over $50 million last year. (7) New York state just outlawed the sale of these inhalants based on their connection as a health hazard. (8) My friend concurred with this article since he was a heavy recreational drug user before getting sick. He has now sworn off the use of any drug, includ- ing alcohol. Since runnning into him and talking I've been reading a lot more about AIDS, since I have more or less been like an ostrich, with my head in the sand. Last night I dredged out my copy of the PBS Nova special "AIDS The First Chapter" and watched it again. I never bothered paying attention before but my ears are perked now! Ok HTLV III is a wimp of a virus (not very strong) and can only take over when the immune system is not at it's peak. The paper mentioned the fact that of the men in Boston and other large cities who voluntarilly were tested for exposure to the virus, almost 80% tested positive. I know that the test isn't 100% conclusive, but it is a real eye opener as far as the level of exposure is concerned. So how can we suicidally run our immune systems into the ground? (1) Recreational drug use; poppers, speed, alcohol, etc, etc. These not only act as immunosuppressors but interfere with proper sleep patterns. It has been found that drugs can interrupt sleep states, resulting in the body not getting adequate rest. Ever wonder why you feel like shit after a heavy night of partying. Part of it is due to just plain fatigue and some is due to alcohol, etc interrupting sleep. You may pass right out in bed but not really get the rest you need. After extended periods of this be- havior, the immune system can become weakened. (2) Along the lines of not getting enough rest is continual partying. This seems to be more common in cities where gay night life abounds. I know a couple of guys (one who I dated) who are out every night till last call and have to be up early for work. They take their speed, mda, etc to keep going and are contimually in search of a trick. I'm not stereotyping here, just making a point about high risk lifestyles. Bottom line is that you need adequate rest to keep all your vital systems up to snuff. Not eating right also can keep a good man down. A lot of all night partyers will pig out on junk food, quick snacks before going on the hunt. At least take a good high potentcy vitamin complex if your major source of energy is "Big Macs". (3) Unsafe sex practices. I won't say too much since a lot has been already said. I never paid attention to the fact that the intestines extract most of what flows through them as fuel for the body until now. Anal passive partners run a high risk since the semen and germs they contain get suck- ed up into the bloodstream along with nutrients. Someone who gets fucked a lot runs a high risk of infection. One practice which I find extremely dangerous is rimming. This has become quite common in non gay as well as gay sexual practices. A friend of mine almost died of shigella a few years back. This is one of those third world disorders one gets from inadequate sanitation "Don't drink the water!" As my family doctor said, "Why do you think God put the anus and mouth on opposite ends of the body". One thing that drugs also can do is lower inhibitions to engage in unsafe practices. Stuff like MDA, poppers, etc enhance sensation and tempt someone to do a lot of crazy stuff. One person I met sliped me a mickey containing MDA, speed and cocaine in hopes that I'de want to get into a heavy scene. I took off poste haste. I've never been much on swallowing semen but can see how it is also hazardous. (4) Having sex with someone who seemingly ISN'T well. I get very suspicious when I see any type of sore, etc in the genital area. I'll politely call it quits as soon as I feel uncomfortable with a partner's condition. I don't care how attractive the guy is; I just don't want to risk getting any infections. If you go home with anyone, you can discreetly check them over during foreplay. I never hesitate to ask about anything that looks suspicious and can usually tell when they're lieing. (5) Whoring around.....nuff said! The highrer the number of partners, the higher the risk. My old neighbor and I talked about numbers of sexual partners and I was amazed when he told me that his total number of partners probably ap- roached over 1000. Needless to say he's become quite celibate. He told me that he's learned to enjoy non genital sex; cuddling, erotic massage, etc as much as the old unsafe sex he had; for him, it's a matter of life and death. Bottom line to all this is that meeting my old neighbor raised my own consciousness to the hazards of AIDS and lesser ailments. Talking to him got me more in touch with some foolish things I've done over the years. I've got some habits that need changing; slow down on alcohol consumption, toss the poppers in the trash, etc. He squeezed my shoulder as he looked me in the eye and said, "Ray! At all costs, stop using poppers, they're dangerous as hell. You've probably been exposed to HTLV III and aren't aware of it. Don't push the hand of fate any further than you already have!" To respond to a posting by Bob Bernardo (I think) asking about feelings regarding AIDS.....yes Bob, I am scared. I think it was you whom also posted something about working out and noticing bruises and wondering if this might be the beginning of Kaposi's. I'm very much into swimming and was at a gay country club's pool doing laps. I always get a bump here and bruise there from the walls of the pool. I noticed a couple of strange purplish marks in my pelvic area. I always get them from banging against the pool walls but got a little worried until they disappeared. If I feel run down or get a bout of diarrea I now wonder. It's terrible to feel this paranoid but the hazard is out there and very real. Ray (Jason on hold for this issue)